I have completed one, which I feel okay sharing, probably because I've completed it and can feel good talking about it. I finished a song, technically two, as I had started on one in December. One was a Christmas song, the other an anthem for liberty. No sooner do I manage this than my guitar student's dad tells me he got recording equipment for Christmas, and to feel free to come use it to lay down some tracks. I have a feeling that's going to work its way into New Month resolutions in the coming months, but I must fight my severe ADHD and stick to the month at hand. Still, this is good, as with age 40 looming in seven months, I've been feeling severely under accomplished and negative. The remedy? Shut up, stop complaining, define some concrete goals and get my butt to work on them. Seeing a friend's blog talk about posting a video of one song a week, coupled with this January goal, got me thinking writing one song a month would be a good goal for me, so thanks, Carl.
As for my other January resolutions, I have started on the other four. One will probably take a day, and I can do that next week. Another will simply take some asking around, and given my shyness when asking for help, actively asking for information will help me attack what has always been a major contributor to a lot of my troubles. The other two, well they require setting aside some quiet time, another one of my weak points, especially with the combination of teens and toddlers under our roof. Still, all doable if I stay dedicated and positive.
I have some other things that, while not originally part of the plan, when I came across them, my thought was, "That's probably a good idea too." One involves the need to figure out how to work around being a nighttime employee, because my work with the New Jersey Tenth Amendment Center has suddenly yielded unexpected attention. I've had different groups asking, whether definitely or tentatively, if I can give a presentation on nullification and interposition. I'm assuming at least some of them will want me to do it on a weeknight. In addition to figuring out scheduling, I suppose I need to address my dread fear of public speaking. To give an idea how bad it is, at last year's Nullify Now event in Philadelphia, and at a town hall meeting Governor Christie gave in my town, I was hyperventilating and dizzy after participating in their Q&A sessions. The other, I found out about the Fab Abs workout, and decided to give it a try. It mainly focuses on building core strength, which has not been one of my strong points. The first week seems easy, while the second week is pushing me. I look at the end of the month and wonder what I got myself into. But I don't plan on assuming I can't do it. If I find out I can't, it will be because I threw myself into it and just wasn't at that level...yet. I figure future months I can stick to maintenance when I get my core strength up and focus on jump starting building legs or arms. In the meantime, I've had a lot less back pain, so I must be doing something right.
So often, I've looked at life in terms of whats I've missed and why. The answer finally came; I've spent most of my almost 40 years watching life happen, and I've been afraid to take on challenges because I've doubted myself too much. That kind of thinking has made me internally old before my time, and I need to spend my coming days getting younger. No more watching life happen. It's time for me to get out there and make it happen! If I expect God to guide my footsteps, I think it's fair to say He's going to expect me to get up and get walking.
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